Let it Be… And it Was!

I read a quote that said “Hell is coming to the end of your life and the person you are meets the person you could have been.” -Unknown. I have always been an ambitious person or what some may call an idealist. But I lack a couple major skill sets required to enact my plans. For one would be my lack of willpower, I have absolute no track record in once devising a plan, sticking with it. Number two I lack the initiative to get the ball rolling, I have a hard time approaching people and asking the hard questions which ultimately leaves me with many missed opportunities. And lastly I suffer from an ever rising and raging problem known simply as laziness. So there it is, my major character flaws laid out. I once started a blog called Steppingstonesoftears but honestly I had no idea what I was doing. It is a collection of some devotional thoughts, personal thoughts, videos, and quotes but it is not exactly what I ever intended for it to be. So here I am hopefully starting the one thing I hope I will follow through with, keep up on, and be able to openly express what life is slowly and painfully teaching me. I suffer with mild anxiety mixed in with depression and although many do not know this I think it is important for you, as the individual reading this to know because it speaks in bounds to the reason for this blog. Almost everyday it is a struggle to crawl out of my bed, the energy I know it will take to face my day is sometimes quite an overwhelming thought. Today I have decided to turn over a new leaf in my journey of life. I have realized that I need to start looking at the brighter side of life, to know the sun is there when all I can see is a shadow. This blog Journey of One Thousand Years I promise will be full of random thoughts, lessons learned, sometimes sermons taught. But this will be my daily journey, my struggle, my victories, my epiphanies, my eurekas and my scribbles of thought. I hope to stay faithful in writing this blog and I hope in some way you  can relate. I do not want to on my death bed look back at my life and see all the wasted opportunity. All the times I was unable to help someone because I feared what was outside of my comfort zone, that it would be to much work or that I would mess something up. I want to live as if each day were may last journey, my last opportunity to fulfill my life’s purpose and goal! I challenge you to do the same 😀